Part 1: Everything’s fine!
I creep into every week with a simple goal – to have a day or several where I succeed in all three pillars of what I consider a “good day”. I want to make some money, exercise and write.
That’s it. Nothing earth shattering. No outrageous goals like cure cancer before lunch.
You may wonder how I struggle to accomplish this. Like, why is my weekly goal “a day or several” and not something more
aggressive reasonable like “at least three days a week”?
The answer is simple: go fuck yourself.
Wait. That came out wrong.
I used to run, run, run and go, go, go. All day. I did that for 30+ years, starting in high school, no less!
Now I’m tired. Actually, I’m not just tired…I’m fucking tired.
And after leaving my retail management career behind after 30+ years, I was ready to rest. I liked my little income setup: Lyft 25-ish hours a week and keeping an iron in the temp job fire to keep things fresh. My average for temp placements was 2/year, which I was fine with.
I was a little less fine when I got my W2 for last year’s temp assignments and saw that I’d earned around $1700 in 2021. And that mindset is never the right time to pick up the phone when your temp wrangler calls.
But I did, didn’t I?
Because I’m a dumbass.
Which is how I ended up on assignment in early February. It’s full-time, which I hate because I frankly make more driving. Plus a 40 hour/week commitment seems so vulgar now. But I’m getting used to it.
Case in point, I was still committed to getting my minimum $500 in ride earnings in each week after this temp job came through. That goal actually wasn’t much of a problem, most weeks I was clearing four digits. I swear, with Lyft, if you download the app they practically automatically send you $500/week. I think if you go longer than one week without managing to earn over $500, they send someone to check in on you.
What I’m saying is that it’s pretty much a sure thing. People gotta go places, you’re going to make money. I’m ok with that.
Until…the Silver Fox ruined everything. Root of all evil, that guy.
I met him at our local after work one day when he’d come back up to town. Him being all pro-me, he was apologetic or overly grateful or something…stressing that he didn’t want to keep me from making money.
But I assured him everything was fine. I’d overachieved prior to his visit, so it turned out that Bob’s now my uncle. In assuring him I was ready for a rest – there’s that foreshadowing again – I spilled my prior week’s Lyft earnings to him.
Amazed, he asked how long that took me.
Me: I dunno…like 30 hours? Nah. Less! I dunno…I was getting up at 430 if I couldn’t sleep and going out for the early bonus hours before plugging in to work at 8. Then doing a little driving after work on some days, too. Oh, and then Friday and Saturday!
SF: And you worked 40 hours on top of that doing the payroll thing?
Me: <raises glass to self> Yupperz.
SF: Geez! You worked 70 hours last week!
Me: <blinks cluelessly>. That can’t be right.
SF: That’s amazing.
Me: It never occurred to me that I’d worked that much. Driving doesn’t feel like working. Not at all.
See? He’s obviously the devil.
Anyway, that also drove home the point that my stubbornness had over-corrected and was keeping me from succeeding at accomplishing my other metrics: writing and exercising.
Shift my focus, did I.
Plus, Angela needed some spa days. I’d been putting off my oil change and replacing a fog light some malcontent had popped out of my bumper last summer during our…protests.
Who objects to a fog light being in a bumper where it belongs?!? That’s what I want to know. Stupid protester.
Anyway, I book a few days in the shop for the car and dial back the driving.
Ratchet up my workouts – which had gotten ridiculously infrequent. Like less than two/week.
I still struggled to write. I posted a couple of blogs and opened my laptop to check on a draft…the shock of which nearly fried my laptop.
What? It was a long pandemic.
But I still have WIPs to get out on “in progress” status. The Gays aren’t big readers, so it’s really only for my own sense of accomplishment. It still bothers me that they are languishing there in WIP status. That’s on me. No one reads them? That’s on someone else.
Shockingly, that stubborn streak of mine asserted itself in a strangely non-self-sabotaging manner. I started choosing to exercise or write versus choosing to drive, aka: proChristinate.
It was oddly liberating.
Maybe I could manage to have it all several days a week after all?!?
Tune in soon. See if that next shoe that drops is a platform heel with a goldfish living in it or a cross-trainer that washed up on the shores of the Puget Sound with an amputated foot still in it.
Yeah, I think we all know which way this is going for foolishly optimistic old Xtopher….
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